hai...

I now keep on having mix feelings...

If Xiang de tong, I could sleep at ease, carry on with my daily life....

If xiang bu tong, I could not sleep, will be sad and no appetite lol...

I think I know... yet it is just thoughts...

I think I understand.... but it is just me...

Of cause I dun want the bad news...
but if it is the truth, I would want to know it first hand...

Being a freaking pesimist...
I came up with lots of ending just like a director...

at times it is just so hard to get by...

Fighting back all the urges...
Feeling lost and helpless always like a crying baby...

I sure hope it is all just my imagination and that what I've read are not true...

what's the truth then?